Happy Eighth Birthday Rock n Roll Bride!
Shell de Mar
October 30, 2015
Sometimes it’s hard for me to believe that this is actually my life. While it isn't rainbows, unicorns and kittens all of the time, and I've never worked longer or harder, I am undeniably grateful that I get to do something I love every single day. Eight years ago today I posted my very first article on this blog. I was working at a shopping channel and although I enjoyed it most of the time, there was always a undercurrent of sadness in my life. The "Is this really it?" mentality. This was something that had been following me ever since I was 14 years old. I'm sure some of you already know that I had a tough time growing up. I had depression, I self harmed, I had an eating disorder, I even tried to kill myself on more than one occasion. I remember around that time my mother would always say to me, "God had a plan" and "You can't give up, you are destined for the most wonderful things". Now, I'm not sure about the whole God thing, but even in my darkest moments I did quietly hope that she was right, and that one day I'd wake up and have it all figured out.Read more...