Happy Eighth Birthday Rock n Roll Bride!

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Sometimes it’s hard for me to believe that this is actually my life. While it isn’t rainbows, unicorns and kittens all of the time, and I’ve never worked longer or harder, I am undeniably grateful that I get to do something I love every single day.

Eight years ago today I posted my very first article on this blog. I was working at a shopping channel and although I enjoyed it most of the time, there was always a undercurrent of sadness in my life. The “Is this really it?” mentality. This was something that had been following me ever since I was 14 years old. I’m sure some of you already know that I had a tough time growing up. I had depression, I self harmed, I had an eating disorder, I even tried to kill myself on more than one occasion. I remember around that time my mother would always say to me, “God had a plan” and “You can’t give up, you are destined for the most wonderful things”. Now, I’m not sure about the whole God thing, but even in my darkest moments I did quietly hope that she was right, and that one day I’d wake up and have it all figured out.

Of course there never was just ‘one day’. There was no single moment when everything changed. These things never work like that and it was a very long process to getting from that place I was as a teenager, to a position where I actually felt I had something to offer by starting a blog. The changes I made in my life between then and 2007, when I registered my free blogspot.com domain, were MASSIVE, and most of them were down to the wonderful man that wanted to marry me. I can’t even tell you how much Gareth has done for me. He quite literally saved my life. He was also the inspiration to start this website. I mean, without him I wouldn’t have been getting married and so I wouldn’t have started a blog to share my wedding planning journey!

So we’re now at 30th October 2007 and I start this site with no agenda other than I want to talk about my wedding (without bothering my friends and family – ha!) It’s the ultimate cliché, but I had no idea what it could become and how it might evolve. We got married in April 2008 and after the wedding was over, I still kept the blog going by sharing cool weddings that I’d found elsewhere online. I used to trawl wedding photography groups on Flickr (oh remember Flickr!?), I would ask other brides in the forums I frequented if I could share their stories, I sometimes re-blogged weddings I saw on other wedding blogs.

However it wasn’t until January 2009 that everything changed. I guess I should backtrack the story slightly and admit that I am the least technical person I know. I touch a Mac and it explodes, I’m always the one dropping or otherwise breaking something on my phone, I know how to use the back-end of my website to upload images and text, but anything more technical than that and I’m a disaster. Thank God a married the ultimate computer geek!

Anyway, its January 2009 and I decide that I want to put Google Analytics onto my site to see how many visitors it was getting. It looked easy enough but me being me, I messed it up and SOMEHOW managed to delete the whole thing! To this day Gareth has no idea how I did it, “But surely there were pop ups saying ‘if you do this the blog will be deleted are you SURE you want to proceed? Really? Are you definitely sure?!'” I have no idea what happened, but all I do know is I did something wrong and the blog was gone forever, KAPUT, DONE, FINITO! Buried in the depths of the Google graveyard.

Yes, there were tears! But Gareth, my geek in shining armour, came to my rescue yet again and set me up with a brand new blog. We bought the .com, switched to WordPress (a much more superior blogging platform to the free one I was using) and I started the whole thing over.

At the time I was SO gutted that my blog was gone, but it was actually the best thing to ever happen. Not only did it mean most of my very early, very embarrassing posts about my own wedding were gone forever (you can see what the old blog looked like here, totally legit right?!) but it also forced me to start again and re-evaluate what I really wanted to do with this space.

It was at this point that I made a conscious effort to only share alternative wedding inspiration. I decided that I wanted to create a place for brides who wanted beautiful yet fun and unique weddings. I wanted to inspire couples to have weddings that reflected them, not one that the wedding industry told them was ‘on trend’. I wanted to share the kind of wedding inspiration I was desperate for as a bride but couldn’t find anywhere. I wanted to create the blog that I wish I’d found when I was planning our wedding.

create the things you wish existed

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So I found a gap in the market, I started filling it and the blog was an overnight sensation. I started getting millions of hits and brands throwing money at me, desperate for me to promote them to my readers. I quit my job, bought a big house and started living the dream.

Well, I’m sorry to break it to you but that isn’t exactly how it happened! If I was to go into every little step between then and now this would be the longest blog post in the world, so let’s just say it was, and still is, a process. There was never one big moment that made me think “I’ve made it!” In fact I still don’t think I’m quite there – there are so many other things to do, so many things yet to achieve, a million more milestones to hit.

However what did happen was a series of little moments and triumphs stitched together to eventually lead me right here. The magazine, for example, came about because were were invited to exhibit at a wedding fair in 2011 and we decided we needed something to give people to show them what Rock n Roll Bride was all about. We basically made a brochure, but we decided to call it a magazine. That’s way sexier right? People were so excited about ‘the Rock n Roll Bride magazine’ that we went on to self-publish three annual mags from 2011-2013, and at the end of 2014 we upped the ante by making it bi-monthly and selling it in real life shops. If you had told me in 2011 that we should start a ‘proper wedding magazine’ I would have never done it. It would have felt too big and too scary.

It’s all about the journey. In business (and in life) the journey you take is the most important thing. The outcome is just one tiny part of it. By focusing too much on what you want, you run the risk of missing all those amazing moments that will shape you along the way.

When the difficult days hit (and they do, often!) I am now always able to pull myself out of my funk by reminding myself just how far I’ve come. No longer do I have to sell towels on the telly, no longer do I have to drive over an hour each way to work, no longer do I have to clock off at 3am… But I don’t believe in luck and I don’t think I’m ‘blessed’. I think I’ve worked very, very hard, pushing myself every single day, fighting to make what I do successful.

My inbox is often filled with emails from people asking for my advice for their own businesses. Sometimes it feels like they expect me to be able to give them the magic bullet that will solve all their problems and enable them to make a success of what they do instantly. And I always tell them the same thing – there is no quick fix. They have to have their own journey.

You really just have to try things out and see where they lead. You have to rise and fall. You’ll have little successes and epic failures. You’ll face closed doors, people telling you “no” and others telling you that your idea will never work. But sometimes when that door slams in your face, on the other side of the room there’ll be a window, just open a crack so you can push your way through. Get out there and hustle. Try things out, see what sticks.

I love that when I started blogging I had no idea where it could lead. I just blogged because I HAD TO, I had so much to say! Remember this was before Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest… even before Facebook was the behemoth that it is today. I wanted a voice and a blog was the perfect platform.

I didn’t start with a roadmap of where I wanted to go and what I wanted to achieve. And while I do believe that having goals is definitely a good thing, I am eternally grateful for where my journey lead me. I mean, if I had known in the beginning that my goal was to start a magazine, I could have done it all a hell of a lot quicker than eight years later. But I am really glad that, for me anyway, I was just able to follow my bliss, to do things that made me happy, to work with people who lit me up, and to turn that embarrassing blog from 2007 into the Rock n Roll Bride you are reading today.

Wherever you are in your journey, always remember that whatever happens, IT IS YOURS. No-one else has complete control over your life so why not just go out and do whatever makes you happy?

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17 comments

  1. Kat – this post was EVERYTHING. Was a truly authentic and beautiful recap of your journey. Happy 8th anniversary. I am happy to have followed you since back in 2008 when I started my own wedding planning journey. Keep rocking and keep inspiring us. You’re a true rockstar.

  2. Kat, I love that you are always honest about the hard work it took to get to where you are at. I know that lots of people want a quick fix, but your story is so much more inspiring to me. “But sometimes when that door slams in your face, on the other side of the room there’ll be a window, just open a crack so you can push your way through.” What a great quote. That gives me far more inspiration than someone saying, “oh, gosh, it just happened for me.” 🙂

  3. Post author

    Thanks Kim, thats so lovely to read. And I agree there’s nothing helpful about someone telling you they got linked somewhere with a big following and just woke up with 1 million instagram followers one day.

  4. We (all the team at Bridal Reloved) love Rock n Roll Bride!

    Was great to read the story behind the awesome! Inspiring….. Thank you and we wish you many more successful years X

  5. All the words and phrases here just seemed to pierce on me,too Kat. So happy and proud of your journey as much as feeling an honour and grateful to have been once part of your early years in the blog and being featured ..it sparked a big help to my business back then..i didnt go skyrocketing but iv only gone just steady since and still loving the life im living now ..and like you said, its the journey that matters more! From Singapore, I now live in Sydney..and i cant brush it off my mind that im close to finally meeting you in maybe your future workshops or when you come back visiting Australia!!! Cheering for you always! xx

  6. Oh Kat I can’t even tell you how much I LOVE this post. Seeing your journey has been amazing and your message about enjoying the steps in between the rise is so up my street.
    You are a fab example of being yourself and working bloody hard to achieve your dreams. Big props to you my lovely. X x

  7. Post author

    Josephine! You have been commenting on my blog since the very beginning. Its so lovely to see your face pop up again! I hope you are enjoying your new life down under!

  8. Risa

    Beautiful post! Huge congrats to you on so many years of following your heart and inspiring others along the way.

  9. This was such a cool – and inspiring – thing to read. My fiance and I got engaged this summer and recently decided to start a blog to document the journey from both our perspectives. I’m also RUBBISH with technology, and there have been LOADS of teething problems in the short time that we’ve been active, but I’m living the journey – and having something that’s ‘ours’. Thank you for the inspiration x

  10. Harriet

    Happy birthday! All great adevtures start with a step. Sometimes the wrong ones help you work out where you should be heading in actuality. I have made a few of them. And am also lucky enough to have the most awesome man in my life who has believed in me for, erm, well longer than I have. Behind every great man is a brilliant women . But, credit where it’s due, they are pretty wonderful supporters themselves. Wishing you all the success. I am not a typical rock n roll bride, but, we did it our way. And we loved it. Keep on being you. Xxx

  11. Steph

    Happy belated Blog Birthday! This has been such an inspiring read. I don’t even want to get married, but I enjoy spending time on your blog because it celebrates love and character and courage to go against the flow, all of which I try to cultivate in life.

    You’re awesome.

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