I need to be honest with you. I’ve fallen out of love with my blog. Not completely, we’re not breaking up or anything, but we’re having a moment.
I’ve been posting here for ten years so I guess it’s enviable there will be rocky patches, but it’s such a bummer. I’ve given so much love and attention to this space but right now I don’t feel like I’m getting it back.
Let me clarify… rocknrollbride.com is the cornerstone of my business, it always has been, and for a long time it was my only focus. But now I have so much else going on (the magazine in particular is taking up a lot of my head space) that I feel like I’ve been neglecting the blog a little bit. Sure, I’m still sharing weddings every day, but while other wedding blogs are publishing multiple articles every day, I simply don’t have the time or mental capacity to keep up. I’ve never had a team of writers behind me, nor do I really want them, but this is probably where I’m falling short.
My lead time for publishing real weddings that we’re submitted is creeping dangerously close to five months, which is a LONG time for people to wait. This means I’m basically just using the blog to churn out real wedding after real wedding without giving myself the space or time to write any longer form content (I’ve been saving it all for the magazine) or to explore and post anything personal (like this!)
And I do miss it.
When I tell people we’ve been together for fifteen years, they’re usually either surprised, impressed or a combination of the two. “Yes he was my first real boyfriend”, I say, “No we didn’t go to school together” and “Yeah, actually, I did get married pretty young.”
When you’ve been together as long as we have you find yourself counting on your fingers to work out exactly how many years have passed. Fifteen took me by surprise though. I was just sixteen years old when we first met (although we started dating shortly after my eighteenth birthday because it took you a while to convince me to go out with you!) so that means that on our next anniversary I will have known you literally half of my life… HALF OF MY LIFE! How is that even possible and when did we get so goddamn old!?
Is it the weather? Is it the time if year? Is it the fact that for a lot of people 2016 has been a bit shit and there’s way too much uncertainty about what’s to come in 2017? In all honestly, I don’t really know what the reason is (probably all of the above!) but the impending end of 2016 has felt like no other year I can remember.
I am an annoyingly positive person so wanted to close the year out with a little reminder to you that EVERYTHING WILL BE OK… and if it’s not, you’ll figure it out. Whatever you’re feeling apprehensive about – where your business might be headed, how you’re going to get everything on your wedding planning to-do list done, your relationship, your family, your bank balance – whatever it is don’t forget that you are in control of your life and 2017 is a brand new year and a fresh new start. Yes, its a massive cliché but I am a firm believer in always looking for the positive in every situation.
While I’m not one for new year’s resolutions (is any concept more likely to make you feel like a massive loser when you fail?) I do think the end of another 365 days is the perfect opportunity to take stock, look back and realise just how much you’ve achieved – I bet it’s more than you think!